Thursday, July 10, 2014

Summer Haze

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It is by going down into the abyss that we recover the treasures of life. 
Where you stumble, there lies your treasure. 
--Joseph Campbell

I'm learning incredible things down here.


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I've been very vague about these hardships of mine.
I'm not sure if it's simply because I don't know how to talk about them or because I don't want to talk about them. 
Giving away all my burdens. 
It seems selfish. 
Imparting all that weight on another person. 
So I try to avoid it.
But then I become nebulous and hazy.
An undefined space.

So I'll begin delineating. 
And providing some clarity. 
I need to figure out how to do that first.
But it will be soon.

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* photo by me

Saturday, July 5, 2014

Delusions

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"I get it now; I didn’t get it then. That life is about losing and about doing it as gracefully as possible…
and enjoying everything in between."  — Mia Farrow

I am under the impression that I deserve things. 
Yes, that vague.
Things. 
Because I don't have the courage to tell it what I want.

I want success to just show up at my door and wish to come in. 
I expect happiness and ease, but that's not what this is all about.
None of that is realistic.
I'm delusional. 

That is what life is teaching me right now.
Don't want; do.
Don't expect; work. 

I'm stubborn, but I'm listening. 

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Happy belated fourth. 
I spent it with friends, eating local burgers, sailing, and napping. 
I hope yours was just as wonderful.

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* From this lovely blog